Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
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so where do we begin…

i dont know…i’ve never been in love all my life… infatuated yes… in love never… until one day on December 2006….

it was the first day i saw him. i was from the hospital that afternoon and i was craving for pineapple pie. i went to the local bakery with my mom. there was no pineapple pie damn. until this guy butted in my mom asked him something and he was looking at me. he gave me a rather nice compliment that rocked my world because no guy ever dare to tell me that. i was practically annoyed by his “presko” style and my fist was itching to give him an upper cut. okay so that was the first day we met.

…as my regular daily routine, i jogged that cloudy January morning. and we crossed paths again. he smiled at me and said “Ingat baka madapa ka”. wHF does he care? i don’t even know him.

then one day i was buying bread from their bakery and when he was about to give my change.. he held my hand and introduced himself as Dennis. i shook his hands off and bounced. i almost laughed out loud because that was funny to me . i was wondering if he was alright in the head. then days passed by and i always catch him looking at me whenever i come his way. i had no malice about it though. i don’t even give a damn.

Valentines day 2007

Again I bought bread and he was there. He asked for my number and the hell i gave it. i don’t usually give my number to a total stranger but i did gave my number to him. i don’t know why i did but i think i was just being friendly. then he began texting me, at first he was friendly. Then after a few days he was asking if we could go out and i refused. he was becoming so makulit and he got into my nerves and i told him to stop texting me. i lost his number anyway.

then a month later, an anonymous texter started to bug me. he knew where i was standing and was acting like a stupid stalker. then i saw him, about 20 feet away from me, holding his cellphone and now i had a suspicion of the texter’s identity. i called the number and his phone rang. damn you. i ignored him for a while. then he started to court me again, and now he confirmed who he was. okay, i admit i had a bit of a crush on him so this time i gave him a chance. somebody told me he already has a kid, and i asked him about it and he didn’t deny it. that was not totally acceptable, but it didn’t moved me that much. it could happen to anybody. so we talk for some time, but we couldn’t talk long because somebody might know about us. so we just text each other when i’m home and we talk sometimes at the bakery. i said yes to him but i told him to keep our relationship a secret because i didn’t want my parents to know. anyway i was thinking this is only a summer fling before i go to the University in Lucena. everything else will be forgotten once i study. come on, he’s 10 years older than me and he’s got a kid. that time i wasn’t taking him seriously. but anyway for the record he was my first boyfriend.

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i HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE

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WELL, he was trying so hard to apologize after what happened before my cousin’d wedding. I really got mad because he hadn’t been considerate about my feelings. He’s following me around and one time when i encountered him in the alley he took my arms but i spun away giving him an angry stare. serves him right. he’s trying to smile at me whenever “look” at him, but i dont return his smiles back. I felt kinda sorry for myself for even letting him into my life. i was so angry that time and i don’t reply to his messages. Anyway i just heard the news that he returned home to Batangas. he was texting me the night before but i didn’t read his message before i delete it. Then somebody told me rumors about him, that he hooked up with Jonjon’s mom, and he was my cousin Jean’s boyfriend and a whole lot of dirt about him. Well he told me about Jean but he said they were over, but Jean said they weren’t. so he was a two timing sonofa*****. That made me hate him more.

so as far as i know it’s over between us but we had no formal closure. April 9,2007. I was at a rock concert drinking beer with my sister and his boyfriend. i was enjoying it much because tomorrow I’ll be having a check up with a psychiatrist (i really need it because i was depressed that time. i’m not crazy i’m just a little unwell). i texted a blank message to him and he replied right away. but i never texted back. I am confused of what I feel then, I don’t know but somehow I miss him. I really don’t know but i never felt that way before. i think it’s just the beer. but i am thinking it must be love..

Then a whole lot of things happened that I was oblivious of the days that passed by. MY shrink adviced me to enroll at the local college because The University is far from home and I need plenty of rest. That time I dunno what happened (i got an amnesia from my psyche medication, no shit)me and Dennis are okay again, I kinda forgave him because he explained everything to me on the phone. So this is a long distance “love” affair.he even asked me to elope with him, but i don’t want to because of my studies. i dunno what came into my head to engage in it but it is my heart that tells me we were meant to be. we just text and call while i’m in my boarding house. we had some quarrels, our relationship is on and off. those were hard times. MY parents disapproval of this is obvious but i insisted and i fought for him. until..

SECOND SEMESTER

i have a hard time keeping my grades up because i always get sick and miss passing my assignments and quizzes so i decided to drop my 2nd sem subjects. i could not get a masteral degree if this keeps up and my shrink told me to stop going to school because I’m still not capable of the pressure. I finished my first sem but now I’m not going to continue my second sem for the better. i felt depressed again because of that. And i don’t want to take my medicine (anti-depressants and sleeping pills) because it lapses my memory. I felt bad about it anyway so I wanted to take a break. i told Dennis to take me to his place for a vacation. so